Past, Present, and then Future

Past a mixture of pain and good memories,
Pain outnumbers the good memories,
When you spent your childhood days mostly by a hospital bed,
Remembering wishing I was dead,
Thinking please fill my head full of lead.
God gave me hope, rescued me from death,
Now taking it day by day with God at my side,
Friends don't understand, but God does.
If it was up to me I'd burn this land,
Turn the opposite way and run screaming,
My heart can't help dreaming, even after heartbreak.
My heart is used to it by now,
Same scene in this so called story, Nothing new,
Lips have been stained with yours,
Hands have your fingerprints covering them.
But everyday though you seem to be getting further away,
I can say all I need to say but it won't fill the hole in your heart,
So I release you, but you leave with my heart always,
But if you never come back I want you to know that you have my heart,
you have had it from the very start,
I don't know what the future brings but I don't care.
The one person you connect with, the one I trust with my life,
it is you, I just know don't ask me how, Whenever I'm with you I know,
being away from you is torture, its a living hell,
I told you I'd go through hell and back for you,
So I'm still holding on, it's all for you.
Past, Present, and then Future.
God keeps on revealing to me more and more each day...
You are the one,
I know we are young,
But I know,
I've never been so sure,
Emotions stir in my heart,
But I will always love you like I always have.