Outside & Inside

Outside

Have you ever had that feeling where everything seems like a dream? It’s a dream that for some reason you can’t wake up from, the sky is a perfect picture; so perfect it looks fake. He going down this trail alone as birds dogfight but not destroying the peace, a lake is to his right and the trees wave to the winds. He looks back on his life wishing he could change some things but knowing wishes aren’t in reality. Regrets cloud his mind wanting to take it all back to get back to where he used to be but he continues down the trail. A tear drips from his eye but he wipes it and straightens up because the world doesn’t have time for tears and pain. The tear is flung to a tulip and is weighed down by that single tear, then suddenly it downpours. The overcast covers the sun and the man is comforted by the cold shower and the harsh bitter winds. His determination gives out and he rests on a rock underneath an evergreen tree as puddles flood around him. Lightning crashes the sky which overpowers his ears from all the words from the past. He looks to the sky again from a crumb of mercy then the sun peers through, clearing almost the exact state of earlier. The man lifts himself up in amazement to see that the sun has always been in the same spot. You know remember when you were a kid and you were so careless? That’s how this man felt so careless nothing was on his mind, they seemed to disappear with the clouds.

Inside

You know the feeling of drinking hot cocoa by the fire during the Winter season? The girl carried this conversation with the boy across the table like the hot cocoa and felt as close to him as the fire. The comfort radiated from one to the other as they smile about whatever came to mind and there were no worries just laughter. There were gray clouds out but they both didn't notice, it always felt like summertime when the other was near. Eyes connecting and dance in the space between them, hearts leaning forward and closer every second. Awkwardness was no where to be seen and the memories were panning out one by one. Sound familiar? We all know that feeling just two hearts sharing the same ventricle, the secrets weren’t even kept themselves. The veins intertwined into many knots but when you pull away it’s when it hurts the most; the more secrets shared, the more time spent together, the more you care, the more it hurts. But sometimes it make you stronger, it tightens the knots. It was a wonderful sensation I will never forget, always cherish, but may never get to experience again.