Shape, Break, and Fill

Searching your eyes but they are empty,
A blank expression grew across your face,
My paradise that I found in your eyes are closed off,
Will I ever see it again?
Not even the vivid crystal is there to make me feel like I'm not dismal,
My emotions seem to be as useless as my love,
Every attempt is in vain and filling my heart full of sorrow,
My eyes flood,
And with every attempt blood soaks my heart.
Disgusted with myself,
I wake up and see you,
Go to sleep and your still there,
But you aren't there at all,
It's just a dream, or a nightmare,
I'm not sure, But I look for you still,
Flare in hand and just shadows everywhere I turn.
Rain came down on my parade,
I see the walls I made with my words,
And they hurt me and tear me apart like birds,
Ravaging ravens to my soul,
I see the hole I've dug myself into,
Remember singing "must have done something right",
Not regretting, But I was so sure...
Staring at my watch to see if the time will show some mercy,
Tempting me to fast forward to when I'll see you again,
I know God you have all things in your hand,
But sometimes it gets so hard, when I see her standing there,
Heart feeling alone and abandoned again,
Please don't grow hard and callous again,
God consume my heart!!
Make it yours...
Shape me...
Make me...
I look in the mirror...
And today I hate myself...
And tomorrow I hate myself...
Be my confidence and my stronghold,
The place where you can hold me,
Keep me warm when I am so cold,
Even when my world just folds,
Be my hope,
The thing that I wake up for,
The thing that I sleep for,
The thing I breath for.
I'm yours oh God!
I'm yours...
You know my pain,
you are the reason I'm sane,
You knew my name before I,
You put each star up in the sky,
Be my truth because I lie,
I'm wrong your right oh God!
Be my sight,
Be my light in the darkness.
Though the world may turn their backs,
Be the one that lifts me up,
Be my sun, and my moon,
Be all the colors, I feel you in Autumn,
The leaves call out in the wind,
They declare your glory and majesty,
Thank you God! Thank you!
For I am so retarded sometimes but your always there,
There in the very air,
You just adore me no matter what,
A love I'm not used to,
A shelter that is stable,
Someone I can trust,
Fill my lungs up again,
Set my heart on fire and make it new,
Let me see you,
And be a witness of all you do,
Oh God! I love you.